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I rode Revelationís pale horse of Hades and one day I will follow Jesus through heaven on a white horse.

Eddie Donnally Questions and Answers

The book delves into race fixing and using electrical prods in races, both subjects that presents Thoroughbred racing in a poor light. Why write it?
    It is an honest view and the things I did that were immoral or perhaps illegal are exactly that, what I did. Racing like any industry has a high percentage of persons of incredibly high morals. Yet, when people are involved, greed and chicanery will be present. I felt it important to take a scathing moral inventory of my life, which is the fourth step of AA, and as a journalist considered honest reporting a must. In particular, I did not want to minimize my actions, only tell with candor my personal story.

In the book you insinuate that using a hand held electrical prod on a racehorse may be more humane than the traditional use of the whip. That seems incredible.
    First, I am not sure either is "humane", in the strictest sense of the word or a sport in which about 2% of horses die on the track is of itself, humane. Yet, I am no more advocating for the end of horse racing than the legalization of "machines". What I do want readers to understand is that I consider misuse of the whip more inhumane than surprising a horse with a slight electrical shock.

In the book you admitted you were wrong and apologize to those you have harmed, including racing fans. Is that sufficient?
    Probably not. My apology may seem empty to some. Yet none of us can change the past. And after my conversion in 1996, I have spent much of my life helping backstretch workers and my behavior since that day has been without blemish. I will always work to warn horse racing leaders of the inherent vulnerability to manipulation in races with Trifecta and Superfecta betting. The book explores the pathos of life as an ordinary jockey. My heart will always be with riders and their causes.

What led you to write this book in the first place? I thought Christians were supposed to look forward and not dwell on the past.
    True. Writing this was very painful, but also liberating. James 5:16 is a key verse: "Confess your transgressions (faults) one to another and pray one for another that you might be healed." As the book records, I could never talk about my adolescent sexual trauma until the holding cell miracle where I felt God forgive me and give me the power to forgive the person who contributed to the trauma. So recording it in this book is an extension of that personal healing.

This book has a highly unusual chapter placement format, why?
    Chiefly, I did not want to spend 80% of the book on my raucous life and the last 20% on the results of the radical change my life underwent. I also wanted to write a book in which the reader would follow one particular segment of my life without diluting it with other areas. I tried to make most of the chapters self contained so the reader could pick it up, spend a few minutes reading and be entertained. At the same time, racing, rage and redemption are integrated in my life and in my reality are inseparable. Still, reader feedback is important and time will tell if it works well.

You use the term "sibling sexual trauma" and not "sexual abuse", why?
    Typically, sexual abuse is perpetrated on a victim by someone typically older who uses force, fear and/or coercion. Sibling sexual trauma is a relatively new term and one I think is appropriate in my case. The perpetrator was close to my age and I was not forced. Sexual exploration between siblings is common and not necessarily traumatizing. Yet, I did not initiate the contact. I was coached, encouraged and to some degree convinced to participate by someone more sexually advanced than I. Because I was traumatized, something not rare in those circumstances, it qualifies as sibling sexual trauma.

What is the "takeaway" you wish readers to have?
    That healing is available to anyone. Many persons have undergone sexual trauma similar to mine. Physical and emotional abuse have caused millions of others to develop unresolved rage that turns inward and manifests in self destructive behaviors. In my case it was same sex promiscuity, drug and alcohol addiction, physical abuse of another and a suicide attempt. I was twice diagnosed as bipolar. I took psychotropic medication for years and twice wound up in psyche wards. More than anything else, this book offers hope for healing and a return to wholeness.


















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